The Little Pine Tree


Mama, why do some people put trees up for Christmas and others don't? -Good question, I said. I'm going to tell you a story that was planted in my heart many years ago...

It goes like this-
A long, long time ago there was a couple with two children, who lived up on the part of the Earth that was very, very cold during this time of the year. It was a difficult time to keep their morals high, for the cold didn't even let them think clearly.
The community they lived in fell into a deep depression during this time of season. It was just too, too cold and they really didn't feel like doing anything. Sometimes, families would go as far as to just fall asleep and never wake up.
-Scary, I know.-
This worried the couple, for they loved their children dearly and never wanted any harm to come upon them.
Papa thought and thought, how could I prevent this depression from happening to us. One feels the frustration of not knowing how to keep warm and active.
Papa knew deep down inside that we are loved by something that cant be seen. But why if this is so, do we suffer at time like these, papa thought.
It was at that moment that Papa looked out the window and saw how beautiful the little pine tree stood out in the snow. It was the only green thing that remained faithful and strong against this chilling cold weather. Papa thought, It stands there like a little solder of life prepared to deal with whatever came its way.
He saw how the little tree pointed up to the sky, the same way our hands come together to pray. The little tree inspired Papa. The little tree gave Papa hope.
He knew at that moment that his family was going to make it through this difficult time of year. His faith grew stronger every moment that the little tree stood its ground.
Children! Papa said, come to the window, I want to show you something. Do you see that little pine tree out there? He said. The children looked out the window as Papa explained... Just like that little tree we too must stand strong with happiness and joyful thoughts for ourselves and our community during this cold season. We will keep our minds busy and hearts filled with joy. Papa continued explaining...
Tonight we will bake goodies for our neighbors and deliver them tomorrow. After that, we will gather ribbon of all colors to put on the little tree so that every time we look out this window we will see how beautiful and strong the little pine tree is.-What Papa did was have faith, the faith that is within us all.
It became tradition every year to color the little tree with ribbons and lights along with other little things. Every year Mama and Papa baked up a storm to share a little something with their family and friends.
With Love anything is possible. Never again in this land did anyone ever fall into a long deep sleep of no return. Thanks to Papas Love, faith and ability to want to change a harsh situation, into something beautiful.
So, that is why we today use the tree as a symbol of our trust and never ending love for God and our people. - The Little Pine Tree.  With time, Stories tend to get lost and even change. Nonetheless, the main points are there. Free Will is ours to choose to take life and see it for what we want. With this, We do hope that when we choose those things they will help us all for the better of man kind. ; )

"In God We Trust"

A young man said to me "I am an atheist I do not believe in the existence of a God." I stood there and listened. I didn't ask about his religion or if he believed in a God, strange I thought, or is it.
I respect other decisions as far as their spiritual beliefs or non spiritual beliefs. But this young man barley 14 years of age said to me "I don't believe." I had to ask, Why is it that you don't believe? His answer was valid in his eyes. He said to me - a fact is 2 + 2= 4, this is real, its not something you don't see, it just is.- He went on and I listened...
As I mentioned before I have a faith, a knowing. With this knowing you may not need to see the fact it just is. Spirit is seen, its seen by those who have that belief in them. It is also seen by those who may not understand that what they see is a different fact of being...
Our forefathers came to our country because they believed in a God of Justice. They believed in a God of Love and compassion, a God that lets us learn from our mistakes...
Our Earth is without a doubt a Fact. I know that It could be so much more beautiful than what we make it to be. Respect of its existence comes with time. We learn to know its functions and why things work the way they do.
Our bodies are from this Earth and they too need to be understood and treated with respect. This all comes with time. I believe we are given this existence on earth to learn and understand what we have, their functions of how they work, their needs and its purpose. With understanding a balance is formed, then comes a harmony, an appreciation of life.
I sculpt faces and heads, I paint expressions of thoughts., for they remind me of every human on this Earth, no matter where they are from, are precious beings.- This is my belief, it comes from the power of the God that I trust in.

"Defective Heart"

-Even in the cloudiest of days, Know that the stars still shine.-  
"You have what looks to be a hole in your heart." I was told by my cardiologist. "It may have been an issue for a long while now" He said. I listened as he showed me a diagram on the wall. "What? Pay attention to what hes saying." I thought. He went on explaining in his terminology. A Ventricular Septal Defect (VSD) is a hole in the Heart. " I have to go in with a camera to see how it looks." Doctor said.
The reason I am sharing this with you is because I want to bring an awareness to others who may have this and not even know it. It should be diagnosed at birth, mine wasn't...(It may cause heart palpations and fatigue)
Below is a painting that my son and I collaborated on. When i paint its out of emotions, I just go with the flow. I started off with the face and a few lines then handed off to my son and so on-layering colors. This is the outcome...

2014 Family Altar


A dear friend, a kind heart that is missed by many. -March 5, 1981- January 5, 2011 -Sugely Chaidez changed my life for the better. She brought to our small City a seed that was planted in my heart and for the better. I thank you and know you are a great asset up with the Angels in Heaven. 
-Miss you beautiful Soul, you are miss greatly-
Honoring this Lovely lady on this day. Beatrice Wood -March 3, 1893 -March 12, 1998- Studio Potter, Ceramicist- Passionate, creative and a bit eccentric, attributes of a beautiful artist. Love her. 
-Remembering you my dear lady-
The Copals' essence floating throughout the loft. It's a musky, nutty sent. Is it calling my loves one to come and join me on this day?  It's my faith, the type of faith that will move mountains. It cant be explained, its a knowing...
 He came home yelling with excitement. "Look what I caught! It's a sheep head" he said. We loved to fish, it was part of our life. Digging for worms in the falling rain, it didn't matter if we were soaked to the bone, as long as we were going fishing we were happy.
Love you Brother. I will always have you in my heart.

Grandma, this onion is rotten! "No" she said "It's not rotten, peel away the skin and you will have a perfectly good onion." -I was so amazed that underneath all that ugly rotten looking onion was a new one. Amazing! I thought. -Still to the day, that memory of the onion is with me. Never again did I throw away a bad looking onion. Peel that Onion Magui : )
Her brother, my granduncle John Watson lived with us for a long time. He is stamped in my mind - Sandy blond hair, blue eyes. Always wore a cowboy hat,  corduroy wool jacket with work boots and a camel cigarette in his hand.- "What are you doing peeling those Potatoes! Don't you know that you could make a perfectly good meal with that?!" He exclaimed. "But their full of dirt Tio!" I would say. I didn't understand until, the stories of the Great Depression. "When I was a boy, we never, ever threw anything away. The peeling of all vegetables contains the majority of the nutrients." He said. wow. I loved my uncle and I learned consciously and unconsciously allot from him. He was a very smart man. I still till the day, never peel my potatoes, I just scrub them and it is because of him. He knew, he new...
Love you Tio miss you very much. Love you Grandma Rose

Mmmm Que Rico Pan! In opinion the best Bread ever. It just came out of the oven, still warm. I baked a small test one and Yup its gone! So soft and Yummmmmeeee! 
I never baked  this homemade bread before until a couple of years ago. I jumped in and tried... All my life in my home we made Homemade tortillas de Harina. Never did we have the custom of baking Bread. We baked cakes but not bread. 
I could see why one may hesitate to try. It's an all day process with letting the dough rise and all but the outcome is more than worth it. You know the ingredients your putting in. There are no preservatives or artificial flavors. It's all natural. In my opinion, that in itself pays for the time you put in. Again, YuM! : )
OK Recipe: Basic ingredients is to start 1/2 water 1 t natural  sugar. I use Zulka Morena Pure Cane Sugar (not promoting, it's very resalable in price) any creamy natural sugar will due, 1 t dry yeast- its about 1/2 envelope and 1/2 c organic flour. Mix these ingredients together. It will look like a pancake batter. Set it aside. It will start activating, looking foamy in a couple of hours more or less depending on room temp. 

Meanwhile get your other ingredients together. -You will need: 4 eggs at room temp.,3/4 c of Unsalted Real Butter at room temp.-Trader Joe's has some at a good price. Cream those two ingredients together. You may add flavor as lemon zest or orange zest, a teaspoon will do. Or traditional Anise flavor, careful it's pungent. I leave mine plain.

Sieve  1 1/2 t salt, 3/4 good sugar 4c organic Flour, and 1T more Yeast or one more Packet dissolved in a bit of water until foamed. Also, if needed one extra cup of flour.
Ready -OK, Now- add this dry mixture to the egg, butter mix, One cup at a time. Also add the Foamy mixture that you set aside earlier to it as well. Start bringing the dough together it will look a bit gooey but better gooey than dry, This is the secret of making a good bread - Keep it in the wet side- not pancake batter wet but more like good sticky Mash potato wet.

With a spatula place it into a buttered glass bowel with room to Grow -IT WILL DOUBLE!! SO give it space. Cover the bowel with saran wrap and let it do its thing. Don't get frustrated, it will take time. Again, depending on the room temp. The warmer the faster But not Hot, you will Kill the Yeast and it will not Rise. OK now once it has risen, butter your hands or with the spatula, pull it out on a bit of flour just so it doesn't stick to your hands. It will be soft dough, You want that.

Cut it into 8 pieces with a knife. It will make 8 breads with out the bones like the ones below or 16 1/2 size ones. ( The picture above shows the size of 16) Let them rise 1-2 hrs more. squirt them once in a while with water so that they wont dry. 
Bake on baking sheet with parchment paper at 400 degrees for 20 min.on the large and 12-15 on the small. Do Not Open The Oven... Look at the color, you don't want them to burn or be under cooked. When they are a bit warm you may sprinkle sugar or leave them plain.  It will take time and patience. But look YUM! Hope you try : )

 
Dad, are we almost there? Not yet baby, He would say admiring the road.-Memories are brought back-Long road trips with all us kids every year without fail. He took us somewhere.- Look at all those beautiful Laureles (Laurels) he would say on our trip to Arizona. Back then, it was only a two lanes with Laurel bushes separating the two sides of the road. During the time we would go, they were covered in flowers.
Planning where the next trip wasn't an issue for dad. He just would say lets GO! It could be to Grandma Rose in Arizona or a Gypsy tour of Mexico in search for his family out in Boonies, Crossing the river rapids -in the truck! or out in the desert. Who knows where with all us kids in the back of that green truck. It's a miracle we're still alive. Ventures with Raul and Ventures with Dad- were many!-
Candles are another important element for the Altar. They are believed to lighten up the path for the spirits. I usually light one now, I keep it on until the night before. Then, I put out a whole bunch with the Copal.
I'm working on the bread right now while listening to Lila Downs. Her song "Los Laureles" brought back the memory of Dad and the Arizona trips.
I will post pics of the Bread later... : )
Love you Dad Love you Grandma Love you Raul

Now I know who the little culprit is that is eating away at my Yerba Buena. It's a little bird! I just saw him out my window!. So that explains why my handsome garden spiders are gone as well. Hmm what am I to do, I love birds but I also love my spiders, they keep away the bad bugs. It's no wonder I haven't been able to grow a decent amount of Yera Buena, She is eating it, wow! I thought it was some other thing doing that...Hmm what am I to do?...Think, Think.
Well anyways, here is a pic of my Altar so far. I have my Father in middle, Raul on the second level, my abuela Rosa, my Tio Emilio on the left. My Tia Antolina, Tio Geronimo on the right center. Not done yet- 
I still need to bake some Pan de Muertos. Also, put some things that they liked on there as well. 
My Fathers Loved fishing. He brought us up loving it as well. Many weekends he would take us all to the Seal Beach Rocks for theday... He would fish but not us, my brothers and I were on a mission to catch our self some crabs. Raul was the wild daring one, I was his tail. We could spend the whole day there...
-Love you Dad- miss you Raul-

This mornings treat.I think I got enough... :) Straight from the Flower District in Down Town Los Angeles. I brought home one dozen of Chimpasuchitls. The Flower Market is always the best place to go But you must head there early morning. They start selling at 2 am. There is an issue with parking but if you don't want to hassle go before 7am, you wont be disappointed, the prices are the best. 
Marigolds are tradition this time of year. They are tremendously hearty and will even last without water. Because they have the tenancy to snap off or bend its best to not get frustrated, use those luscious blooms for stringing and hang them around your Altar. Their scent is quite pungent. The smell is mostly in its leaves so try not to remove them. Some say its too strong but I like its herbal sent dancing around my loft. It is said that the aroma with help guide the spirits of your loved ones to you : ) I like that.

It's that time to starts pulling out the Altar Elements. I went out to the thrift store on a mission to find some picture frames and found a few that I liked. I redid all my frames and now the pictures are ready to go on the Altar.
Every year when I pull my box of Dia De los Muertos trinkets, it feels like Christmas. All the little things that I pull out, bring a  little bitter sweetness to the air, it happens every time. I have to say though, It's more sweet than bitter.
The altar I have, I built out of reclaimed wood from here and there. The base is about 2x3' The Back panel is about 2x4' high. From the floor to the top it's 7' 5", Sound tall but at the moment I live in a Loft with very high ceilings. I designed it that way to bring it out as a statement piece.
I will continue adding pics as I go. Have a good day : )
Come on lets go, he said. I don't want to walk all the way out there, I will burn my feet, I said. OK then, climb on the wagon and I'll pull you...off we went on our journey to collect cans.
This is how my brother and I spent our weekend. Bare feet, tangled hair wondering the ally ways collecting cans...cashed them in, left with a bit to splurge in this little store called TicTock. Venture after venture with my brother Raul... 
He passed on almost a year after my Father did. The Monarch Butterfly was on the doorstep of my daughters studio (on the back of my then home) there, barley flapping his wings the monarch stood. He is a male Monarch, I took it as a spiritual sign from my brother. It was there the exact moment he was set to rest. 
Love you Raul <3 nbsp="" p="">

I don't think of them very often, its only on these day that my memory treats me to the moments I spent with my Tia Antolina and Tio Geronimo. They were my closest uncles of them all. 
Almost, no, every weekend our families spent it together. Mom and Tia worked at the StarKist Tuna Packing Co. down by the docks of San Pedro...Tia would come home with a huge slab of tuna for the whole clan. Believe me, it was a large clan. If it wasn't tuna it was a Cow Head, really a real huge cow head. It was cooked outside in the back yard...Yup! real tacos de cabesa...Tia Antolina had 12 children and my mom, well I'm from a family of 7. So imagine. To the day I don't know how these lovely ladies kept their sanity. I now understand why they drank so much, and parties were endless on the weekends. -Paper flowers, a lantern, a Mexican doll with huarache sandals (that were common among my father and uncle) will be places on the altar...  
Miss you Tia miss you Tio, your in my heart forever <3 p="">





Chiaroscuro 2014 Sculpted Head

Back in 1997 I was introduced to the Italian Renaissance art. It opened my eyes to many artist of the time but by far-most I fell in love with the work of Caravaggio. I had the opportunity to study abroad. I saw firsthand why it was that he painted with such contrasting lighting.
I was there, in the room that he placed his subjects. Dark gray with minimal lighting. I could only imagine the candle lit room as he brushed against his cloth. Drastic, mysterious even sad, were the feelings that came to me...
Selfie Face painting on Halloween 2014

Today I take pictures of all my work. I enjoy the contrast of light that falls upon my sculpted faces. It's nice to have memories of those times back in Italy. Enjoy 0:)

Robin Williams Tribute



We all fell in Love with this man. May all the emptiness that we feel inside our hearts be filled with the intense beauty that Robin Williams left us with...
"When I look up into the blackness of the turning night and see a shooting star I Will Think Of You"
Thank you Sir Robin for being Such a Lovely Soul.
MA